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Recovery from Gambling Addiction

Recovery from Gambling Addiction

My name is Catherine, and I am a recuperating impulsive devoted gambler. Jan 29th, 2007 will mark my 10th-year in recovery, but always remember where I have come from with betting habit.

Gambling dependence took just about all things from me such as family, friends, status, work, my house, car, nearly my marriage and cost me more than cash; it virtually cost me my life twice from self-destruction. Also, I wasn't aware I had psychological and psychiatric problems until some years later.


I felt depressed, frustrated and angry.


My First Failed Suicide Attempt

I woke up in the hospital with swathes wrapped all around my wrists and could hear two people discussing knives all over the living room as I lost consciousness again. The only thing I can recall was everything turning blank. Recently, I have become aware of what caused that empty feeling; It was caused by a collapse of my nervous system. A psychological/emotional pass out. From there I moved to a dependence/mental crisis base.


I was observed for self-murder for the first few days. Not long after, a psychiatrist began to work with me. And indisputably, I was an impulsive gambler also. So, I began to work with a dependence counsellor also.

I had tried to halt gambling on my own but felt I could manage it on my own and I failed with several backslidings and binges even when in outpatient therapy. But it seemed like I could still go on with my life.

Even after staying for 20 days in a crisis centre and a failed suicide!


What Could Be Happening To Me?

It's called ADDICTION. It is an infection that is difficult to overcome. Be that as it may, conceivable. And this wasn't the final moment I would work this circuit.

In some years later, I tried to end my life not due to gambling specifically rather my imprudence relating to monetary issues, and this showed the flaws in the effort I put into getting better physically and mentally.


First lesson? A well-balanced recovery plan. But in 2006 I as well just required to be normal, live life in recuperation without having to take medications for psychological/emotional problems. So, I discontinued using them believing it was only the betting that was causing my mental sickness issues of PTSD, manic depression, mild mania verbosity and bipolar sleeplessness cycles and OCD. Sadly, in a matter of weeks, I was in a state of despair and wanted to kill myself. My answer? I took every one of my meds on the double. I had gotten to that dim, dark gap of misery once more.


Back in the healing centre once more, an additional 16-day emergency focus stay and days of suicide watch.

When dismissed this time, I had found out the difficult way that I require to take meds to keep my mental/emotional health and welfare as they refer this being "dually diagnosed or dual diagnosis."

Along with the bitter moments in recovery, when they remind me to have faith, I took some life lessons out of it. We can't improve without imbibing many of the lessons we acquire in life. Notwithstanding when you are not taking part in your inclination of enslavement, we can at present have issues emerge and life challenges in recuperation, so being readied is imperative.

Where Can I Be Going With This Part Of My Story?

Diverse places.

In the first place, the propensities and practices that we learn and get inside any dependence and "the cycle" of any habit should be hindered and taken away for us to have a shot at a genuine fair recuperation. Balance is very important in your recovery pathway also. Learning the arts and implements in treatment and therapy to discontinue the repeated processes of addiction and clear a path for dispersing control, disavowal, justifications, and more.

Second, come to acknowledge that recuperation is a deep rooted prepare. It is as necessary to agree as Step one, complete surrender.

Next, is having a setup which halts the regression of the whole remedial process and it is essential for any individual who desires a permanent positive outcome. We all are aware that life events happen. Indeed, even upbeat or positive occasions, not simply negative or terrible ones.

I feel it is the reason Gamblers Anonymous put the question forward in our combo book of "The 20 Questions" to know if you have an issue with betting. It is the reason they posture #19.) "Did you ever have a desire to commend any favourable luck by a couple of hours of betting?" YES! For me, notwithstanding when things great happened, I would need to celebrate by going as far as anyone knows to have some "enjoyment" by betting. At that time, my addiction toward gambling was so serious, I tried everything to control myself with, other than Gamblers Anonymous.

I attended gatherings and met a lot of people which assisted me tremendously; the experience of other individuals with cases similar to mine kept me adequately informed of the level of deception inherent in gambling addiction. What's more, GA showed me that it is so imperative to be there for others through recuperation benefit as others were there for me when I was a newcomer.

We have to begin a discussion about this still quiet, quiet habit. We need to disassemble the myths that have been growing in our society about this sickness and open the eyes of the sufferer of dual diagnose. Yes, psychological/emotional ailments in recuperation can be a tricky duty, but I hope by sharing some of my encounters, energy, and hope, and distributing some of my narratives can be an illustration that recuperating is within reach, and we can be jovial, healthy and fruitful lives in recuperating!